i had a bad pan ic attack on sunday and i was sobbing and hyperventilating for an hour and a half literaly i hyperventilated so hard thatm y hands went numb and shook i wish i was exaggerating. .. ihadnt cried in so long and iwas doing  pretty wel land that ltierlaly changed my mental state

i can’t get out of it… i still feel that hollowness and numbness and hopelessness.. i can feel it again it’s been so long and i hate it i have no motivation to do anytihngi cant drwa i can’t finish ocs i hate it i don’t want ths i wan t to go back to how i was

i do nt want to bur den people anyhmore thats’ what the panic attack was about i just w ant to not be ab urden and not to feel thigsn im sick of being like this all i do is m ake people upset i ha te it ijust want to be nromal and happy